“I need a new drug”
As I watched the time get closer to 3 am with no relief from the pain or feeling like I had no chance of getting any sleep. I felt desperation overtaking my body. I had tried all of the past solutions and had even got up and straightened the house.
I opened the hall closet, looked thought “my” box of medications.
Nothing. I looked through the rest of the medicine.
At this point I was looking for anything. I found several bottles of cold medicine. Non-Drowsy! WTH! Why on earth would I buy all “non-drowsy” cold medications?
It began to dawn on me that I was acting like an addict.
I was “in need” of a fix. That fix was sleep. I didn’t care how I got it.
I just knew I needed it and I needed it NOW!
The search continued… I found a pain prescription for my husband at the bottom of the box. I looked it up the side effects and possible drug interactions on the Internet finding nothing that I felt would cause any harm.
I have never taken someone else’s’ meds – until now.
I took one. It did not bring me sleep but it brought me relief from the pain.
I went to my Chiropractor appointment and then work. So very tired.
Once at work, I realized I had forgotten to take my morning meds – I proceeded to take them.. Approximately 1/2 hour later – the yawning would not stop, I was fighting to keep my eyes open. This was not normal. I know I had been up since Mid-night but this was different. It dawned on me – I had taken my bedtime meds.
Sure – Now my bedtime meds wanted to kick in and work for me. I did go home and slept the day away. Of course, then I took my night meds again ~ and back to sleep I went.
My prescription drugs include a Serotonin Modulator, a SSRI, a Tricyclic antidepressant, an Opiate, an Anti-epileptic medication and an Amphetamine.
Once my body gets accustomed to the “drug” I have to go bigger and better or find a “new” drug that will work at least until I get accustomed to it too.
I began to look at this – I am an addict. Reality is that I take “uppers” in the a.m. to wake me up and get me going and my “downers” bedtime meds to get me to sleep.
I find myself heading back to the Doctor this week to find the “new drug” to help with the insomnia.. Until then – Huey Lewis and I will be singing a duet.
One that won’t make me sick
One that won’t make me crash my car
Or make me feel three feet thick
I want a new drug
One that won’t hurt my head
One that won’t make my mouth too dry
Or make my eyes too red
One that does what it should
One that won’t make me feel too bad
One that won’t make me feel too good
I want a new drug
One with no doubt
One that won’t make me talk too much
Or make my face break out