Is this what life is gonna be?

Is this what life is gonna be?

My daughter is on an extended get away with her Dad. I miss her so. I am trying to keep myself busy. The busier I am the less time there is to think. I began to write this thinking most people are wondering what does this have to do with surviving with Fibro. I believe it has more than I even imagined. If I think about it as a “loss of time with her” and how much I miss her.. I begin to stress and get depressed. Those feelings not only affect my feelings of sadness, but come from the brain. The headache begins and the tightness in my neck and shoulder create nerve pressure points.
My friends are busy with their families and lives. I live so far away from my family. I no longer have any hobbies. So that leaves cleaning, which thankfully is always there waiting for me to do.I was going to go outdoors and do some yard work. Lately, my eyes have become so sensitive to the light that shades are not enough. The heat which I used to baby oil up to enjoy is too much for me. I spent the last 2 hours organizing our “computer/girl scout room”, the family room, and starting laundry.
The positive thing – much needed organizing was completed. The negative thing – I spent the last 2 hours being on the floor or bending over and putting things in trash bags. That starts the pain in the lower back. If I sit in this chair long. I won’t be able to get out without the slow groaning action of a 90 year old.
Soon, she will be off busy with her school activities and needing little time from her Mom. I need to find something that is a not to physical hobby to keep me moving, and keep my mind busy.
How easy it would be to sit in this chair with the laptop and a remote control for the tv and just give in to the depression.
I look forward to tomorrow when I can go back to work and forget these feelings.
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