What did I sign up for? & Why keep doing it?

What did I sign up for? & Why keep doing it?

Having all of the different aches and pains that come along with being a Fibromite – you would think that I would know better. Guess not.
In every article you read about how to help your stiffness and pains – the so-called experts tell you that you should do some form of exercise. That it is important that even tho it hurts to move that you continue to move.
Two years ago, I did what I thought they meant. I began going to the 6:45 a.m. class that consists of people 70 years young and older. I also started going to a wonderful center near my work that has lunchtime therapy swim for Fibromyalgia patients. These classes offered support and a place to stretch and get the body warmed up so that I could walk easier. I started to add classes that were a little more aerobic. These were classes that when I was done I would feel stiff and sore but I would feel that I had accomplished something that I was not supposed to be able to do. Over the past few years I tried more challenging classes. Some days I am able to work as hard as those who do not have any health issues. Other days, I just do what I can do to complete the hour. I take swimming classes (all different intensities) 5 days a week. I began taking a land zumba class – 2 months ago. This is once a week for an hour taught by a friend of mine that will get on my case if I do too much… and .. I am accompanied by my Daughter (who watches me like a hawk). I love the class – take some of the movements in moderation – but burn those calories. So, can I walk when it is over? yes, with some stiffness. But, I CAN DO IT!
So being a person that may not understand what they mean to do something in moderation ~ perhaps I might have gone a bit too far. I signed up for a Biggest Loser class. After taking the first class – I was not only in pain for days but… I was amazed at what it consisted of during that very long exhausting, excruiciating class. My Sister asked me “what did I think the class would be?” and “hadn’t I ever seen the show before”?…. NOPE..
Last week was a killer – it took my 4 days to recover from the pain of the work out. I really don’t think the pain was because I had fibro. It is because I worked muscles that I don’t think my body has ever used before. The recovery may have been longer because of my “issues”.
I skipped the class I am supposed to be at right now. It was going to be an hour long AB work-out. I had full intentions of going to the class. I just couldn’t mentally convince myself to go to class tonight. The same way that I had talked myself into the class – I talked myself out of it. I still worked out for 15 minutes at home (worked off a whopping 72 calories).
That scares me.. My ability to talk myself out of something that I know I should be doing. I didn’t waste the night. It was spent with my Daughter watching our favorite new TV show.
It is only one class. I won’t become glued to my chair for the rest of my life after skipping one class. But I can see how easy it is for others. I understand that the pain, the depression, the want to just hold up, to save what energy you have for the next day.
In addition to life at home, working a full time job (36 hours-a week now), Girl Scouts, Thanksgiving and decorating the house for Christmas ~ I took 6 work-out classes. To the outsider, I doubt that is seems that I am ready to give in to the Fibro and I may not this week. Last week ~ was a different story.
No, I didn’t sign up for Fibromyalgia. Yes, I signed up for the killer workout. Both giving me pain. I thought about this.. Hmmmm…. I willingly paid money to put myself in pain when I am busy spending money to keep myself out of pain. WTH?
So why do it? Why continue? I continue because it gives me the sense of accomplishment. I am able to complete the same workout as someone who runs 9 miles. I do it so that I can fight not only the weight that goes on with the meds but the want to stay in my chair.
but… I think that the next time I want to try something a little more challenging.. I might watch the show first.
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