My thoughts on Fibro today

My thoughts on Fibro today

Fibro people are like snowflakes
Not one is the same.
Each person has their own aches
Searching to find what will help them like it’s some sort of game.
The aches and pains – “How did you hurt yourself?”
What did you do?
A physical therapist is where we should send you.
The tests show “You are fine”
Those are the words that are said
“Your imagining it” – “It’s all in your head”
They prescribe meds for the pain, anxiety, insomnia & to stop being sad
I feel like a yo-yo, Just want to scream and get mad.
First your mind is racing like a pinball game or as if you are trying to get through a maze
Then it goes blank and you are in a foggy daze.
Gone is the phone # you have dialed for years
You can no longer remember and it brings you to tears.
Ahhh, forgetfulness – you are told
It’s just a sign that you are starting to get old.
How can a syndrome that makes you feel every ache and pain so much
Also, create a numbness so that you can’t even feel your fingers to touch.
You are simply stressed out – you need to relax
If you are not careful you will have another Fibro attack.
So very exhausted – can’t keep your eyes open
Just a few hours of painless sleep is what you are hoping.
It hurts to move and it hurts to sit
It doesn’t matter either way you feel like s***.
Who cares if your stiff, sore and tired
Daily trips to the gym for a quick swim is required.
These are a few of the obstacles that can create the daily strife
If you have fibromyalgia in your life.

A guilt pleasure

A guilty pleasure

My Counselor told me to start doing for myself – that I need to be healthy and happy if I am going to be “There” for anyone. So, with that being said – I slowly began to follow some of the important things – going to bed on time (even if everything is not done), eating (making food that I can have or should have), going to swim every day that is possible (despite the time away from home – or household chores), AND soaking up some artificial light at the tanning bed (costly but so relaxing) or taking a long hot bubble bath.
These are supposed to be my “guilty pleasures”. I supposed they are according to the dictionary. ”A guilty pleasure is something one enjoys and considers pleasurable despite feeling guilt for enjoying it.”
But are they a guilty pleasure when you are doing them so that you can continue to enjoy life to the most that your body will allow. Are they a guilty pleasure or more of a task that must be done – no matter how tired, stiff or sore you are on that given day?
Maybe, for me – my guilty pleasure needs to be redefined. The few things that come to mind just seem like too much work or too tiring just thinking of them. I need to find something that is for me to enjoy but not because if I don’t I may not walk easily the next day. My to do list for me now will say – Enjoy something that you wanted to do just because…
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