Today the flare up was at its worse. whether it is the change in weather, the high stress at home, the fact I haven’t excercised since saturday, or just because….. No matter the reason I went swimming tonight, took meds and hope to sleep. I was just done with my fourth meltdown today when I talked to a new friend. She could tell my day by my face. She said she was at the pool also for piece of mind. She works at a hospital. This weekend she watched 3 lives end. A 27 year old overdose, a women who left her children orphans because they lost their dad a few months before, and and infant born 6 months early. I thought of their families and mostly the mom who only had her son for 24 hours . I will get another day …good or bad…I get another day. I am going to try to sleep – and tomorrow will be good .. Because I have a tomorrow.
The past few days have been a rollercoaster. I have been trying to make jokes about the most current developments- the sleeplessness continues but now I have developed the numbness in my.hands and some of my face. I told everyone that apparently my body isnt ok with having only 13 of the 15 main symptoms, so I needed to be an overachiever and have all 15 . I am also popping tylenol like candy which will
damage my liver,-my reply to this is I may as well become an alcoholic. At least then I would enjoy killing my liver. I went swimmin this am, this class is the older group..I am trying some of the stretches hoping to regain the circulation in my hands. Well meds havent kicked in yet,…heating pad is on, icy hot applied-hope to sleep soon-5 am will be here soon.