Fibromyalgia Rollercoaster

The past few days have been a rollercoaster. I have been trying to make jokes about the most current developments- the sleeplessness continues but now I have developed the numbness in my.hands and some of my face. I told everyone that apparently my body isnt ok with having only 13 of the 15 main symptoms, so I needed to be an overachiever and have all 15 . I am also popping tylenol like candy which will
damage my liver,-my reply to this is I may as well become an alcoholic. At least then I would enjoy killing my liver. I went swimmin this am, this class is the older group..I am trying some of the stretches hoping to regain the circulation in my hands. Well meds havent kicked in yet,…heating pad is on, icy hot applied-hope to sleep soon-5 am will be here soon.

Fibro Reality

I have been going to a YMCA type facility since early December and I have been taking up to 5 water classes a week. When I am there – the majority of Women are there so they looked good by swimsuit weather – they don’t need to know that I am there so I can walk the next day.
Today, I went to my consultation at a Therapy facility – there Everyone is there so thay can walk. I start a class on Friday that is specifically for Fibromyalgia patients. The pool was amazing (92 degrees) – the instructor very nice. The warmth was wonderful on my extremely sore and in major pain body. I was fine until I started to get dressed. I started to really look around at the facility. I started to cry. I began to see what could possibly be in my future. Everyone around me needed to have assistance in walking or if walking unassisted was noticeably slow and in pain. The locker room had lots of benches and chairs – no one was standing to get dressed/or/undressed. The shower rooms were large enough for wheel chairs, had chairs to sit in and had the long extended shower heads. It was just too much for me to see. I know that what I saw wasn’t a vision in a crystal ball – and that just because other’s have had this fate that it will be mine. It was just too “real” and the “real” part is – Fibro sucks.

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