Good Morning/Good Night-yeah right!

Good Morning/Good Night-yeah right!

Tonight, I was getting ready for bed ~ I commented that “this sucks, normal people don’t have to do all of this to go to bed” .. I was told “your not normal”.. OUCH… Reality bites –
Every morning alarm clocks go off around the world and people start the day. Whatever their morning routine may be. Excercise, Shower, a coffee, reading the morning newspaper, etc. They get up and start the morning. If you have fibro your morning routines are not that simple. The alarm clock rings, no matter how much sleep you got (pray for sleep), it is not enough. I usually have body aches from head to foot. Flexing my feet, ankles hoping that when I get enough energy to put them on the floor they will function properly. I open my eyes hoping that I don’t have a pounding headache. The rest of getting up really is in the mind. I will be stiff and sore when I finally get up. So then I need to convince myself to get up. So want to stay in bed. So want to stay in bed all day. But … I have to start my day – my very long day. I no longer do my morning cooking and cleaning. It takes all my strenth and will power to get dressed, get my daughter up, take meds and get out the door on time.
My day finally starts to come to an end about 8 p.m. I take my meds, change into my pj’s(if I haven’t already) and by 830 – I need to be in bed. The thought crossed my mind last night – how difficult going to sleep had become .. it’s a chore. Now, I have to sleep on my back. I HATE SLEEPING ON MY BACK. Most of the time I will cheat and lay on my side with a body pillow. But the last 2 nights I have followed the rules (for most of the night). I turn on the heating pad which is placed under my hips and back. I put a pillow under my knees.. then the fun begins. It seems as my body starts to relax it needs to remind me of all of my nerves. My hips and back are primarily what would have knife stabbing pain. Lucky me – this new pain that started a week ago has decided night time would be a great time to act up. It is the area of my stomach or rib cage usually left side. The pain is so sharp that it takes my breath away .. I need to take deep breaths to ease them. Childbirth for me – easy no pain. This however, is so overwhelming – breathing thru it just slightens the intensity.
If I am lucky, my meds have started to take affect after a very short time, my brain has slowed down, the day has not been filled with relationship drama, a stressful work day and I don’t have words spinning in my head. note: is is 10:41 p.m. My bed time is strictly 830. No sleep means a rougher day is in store for me tomorrow. Now that the words are on paper (so to speak) maybe I can relax enough to fall asleep.
For me for now, I will stick with Morning and Night. Good doesn’t describe my mornings or nights.
OH, WTH… GOOD NIGHT….. from the ‘not normal’ blogger.
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