I need a new drug

“I need a new drug”

The other night I awoke at midnight in pain and found myself unable to fall back to sleep. This is not an uncommon occurrence. However, usually I can reposition, turn on a mystery show, chat with another Fibromite, play Words w/Friends, apply ice or heat and within 1-3 hours fall back to sleep.

As I watched the time get closer to 3 am with no relief from the pain or feeling like I had no chance of getting any sleep. I felt desperation overtaking my body. I had tried all of the past solutions and had even got up and straightened the house.
I opened the hall closet, looked thought “my” box of medications.
Nothing. I looked through the rest of the medicine.
At this point I was looking for anything. I found several bottles of cold medicine. Non-Drowsy! WTH! Why on earth would I buy all “non-drowsy” cold medications?
It began to dawn on me that I was acting like an addict.
I was “in need” of a fix. That fix was sleep. I didn’t care how I got it.
I just knew I needed it and I needed it NOW!
The search continued… I found a pain prescription for my husband at the bottom of the box. I looked it up the side effects and possible drug interactions on the Internet finding nothing that I felt would cause any harm.
I have never taken someone else’s’ meds – until now.
I took one. It did not bring me sleep but it brought me relief from the pain.
I went to my Chiropractor appointment and then work. So very tired.
Once at work, I realized I had forgotten to take my morning meds – I proceeded to take them.. Approximately 1/2 hour later – the yawning would not stop, I was fighting to keep my eyes open. This was not normal. I know I had been up since Mid-night but this was different. It dawned on me – I had taken my bedtime meds.
Sure – Now my bedtime meds wanted to kick in and work for me. I did go home and slept the day away. Of course, then I took my night meds again ~ and back to sleep I went.
My prescription drugs include a Serotonin Modulator, a SSRI, a Tricyclic antidepressant, an Opiate, an Anti-epileptic medication and an Amphetamine.
Once my body gets accustomed to the “drug” I have to go bigger and better or find a “new” drug that will work at least until I get accustomed to it too.
I began to look at this – I am an addict. Reality is that I take “uppers” in the a.m. to wake me up and get me going and my “downers” bedtime meds to get me to sleep.
I find myself heading back to the Doctor this week to find the “new drug” to help with the insomnia.. Until then – Huey Lewis and I will be singing a duet.

Song of the day; Huey Lewis “I need a new drug”
I want a new drug
One that won’t make me sick
One that won’t make me crash my car
Or make me feel three feet thick
I want a new drug
One that won’t hurt my head
One that won’t make my mouth too dry
Or make my eyes too red
I want a new drug
One that does what it should
One that won’t make me feel too bad
One that won’t make me feel too good
I want a new drug
One with no doubt
One that won’t make me talk too much
Or make my face break out
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