Sleepless in Wisconsin

Sleepless in Wisconsin

Here I am…. 1:47 a.m. – Sleepless in Wisconsin – watching Sleepless in Seattle.
Flare began this week.
It started on Tuesday with my Fog. The usual stiffness and aches were getting more intense. Sleeping was getting more sporatic.
Then came Wednesday night – I was up off and on – slight headache.
The alarm went off at 6 a.m – it took all of my willpower to get out of bed and get my Daughter up for school.
Thankfully she is a very responsible 11 year old. She went to get her breakfast and I went right back to bed.
When my husband got home he found me in the fetal position on my bed in uncontrollable tears.
Full out Flare: Migraine, Vision blurred, fever feeling flu like aches, allodynia, complete pain from head to toes.
I realize now that I have really come a long ways in the past two years. I would have been at a loss as to what to try to help myself. I would have let the panic and anxiety take over and it would have won.
Now, it took me a good cry – but I got my ice pack to put on my forehead – learned that method from my Counselor – along with using my breathing techniques he taught me. I was able to slow the brain spinning down and to stop crying. I put another ice pack on my lower back/hip right side. My husband took over the morning routine with our Daughter and darkened my room – closed the door – and I fell asleep.
I awoke almost 3 hours later. The only real improvement was that my headache wasn’t as bad (helps when your not in a hysterical cry). Headed straight to a hot bath, more Tylenol, morning meds, breakfast – and off to work. I arrived 3 1/2 hours late for work.
I managed to stay at work for 5 hours. On days like this I can handle the pain but the Fog makes life so very difficult. The stress alone of making sure that you are not causing any mistakes, to not let it get noticed by my boss or those at Corporate. My mis-typed words were easily fixed without anyone knowing. My mis-spoken words were caught – and there were a lot. For no reason at all words that had nothing to do with what I was saying would replace the word that I had intended to say.
I wanted to go straight to the pool – swim – hot tub and return home to meds and bed.
I got to go to run from 2 girl scout homes (it’s cookie time – and I am cookie Mom) then a school function – then a town 20 minutes away (pick up cookies), return to school function (so proud of our Daughter – she gets to go to Regionals in a History Fair), then home to get ready for the next day. I didn’t get to bed until an hour past my bedtime – took my “only take these on my worst flares ever meds”, and it still took me almost an hour to fall asleep.
and.. now – I gave up after trying to fall asleep – turned on the TV (how appropriate – Sleepless in Seattle was playing), and I started to read my Fibro group postings from today.
I am not going to try to sleep again – 4 hours until the alarm goes off for another long and busy day.
I am hoping for a different sleep themed movie – my choice … Somewhere in Dreamland
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